Spiritual Struggles

So right now i'm pretty much just going to be venting sooo... if you want to leave now I understand haha.

Right now I've been struggling with God's Word a bit. I have been consistently reading it but I rarely retain anything I get out of it. This is due to, or at least largely due to, the fact that all I seem to see in the Bible are things that I am doing wrong. I can read one chapter of the Bible and learn 10 different sins that I struggle with and that overwhelms me. I'm kinda just left with the thought, "ok so God told me all the things wrong with me, but not how to fix them" and then I kind of give up. But I don't want to give up anymore. I've come to learn that these sin issues are affecting the way I act around people. Being one of the older guys in Chi Alpha, I need to be an example and I'm certainly not doing that right now, and I certainly need to get my act together before the new seventh graders come in this Sunday.

So if you didn't understand that very scatterbrained paragraph above, essentially two problems have arisen: I struggle with enjoying reading the Bible and I need to set a better example.

As far as the first problem goes I only have one solution for so far: look for things other than whats wrong with me in the Bible. It is good to learn about your problems don't get me wrong, but in the mean while I am missing out on a bunch of other stuff God is trying to teach me.

And as far as the example part goes... I'm honestly not sure. I know I need to keep reading the Bible, keep asking God for guidance, and keep a careful watch on myself throughout the day, but it seems like there needs to be something else. I want to change the problem not just from the outside but the inside. Every sin is a heart issue not an action issue. Your actions reflect your heart. But how do I change my heart? I know I need to give my heart and these issues over to God, but what does that truly mean? I dunno. I'm just a bit lost right now honestly.

Anyways, if you understood any of that at all, I thank you for listening. Please pray for me and let me know if there is anything I can pray for you about!