Life in Recent

Its been a while since I have posted anything and that mainly has to do with the fact that I haven't been all too happy recently.

As I have said many times before I don't know what God wants to do with my future and it freaks me out. But that wasn't the main reason I was depressed.

You see, I had this view that if everything is going to be better in Heaven, then why would I want to live? Not that I was suicidal, but I just didn't see a reason to value life even though in general I enjoy it. And I figured I would stop enjoying it once I grew up so I was seriously considering the army because if I lived it gave me time to figure out life and if I died I would finally be able to go to Heaven.

In all honesty, that is not terrible logic although its not good. See, it is good to look forward to Heaven. It is good to know that Heaven will be better than here on Earth. But it is not good to lose your sense of value for the life gave us on Earth completely. We should definitely be living with the future in Heaven and storing up our treasures there rather than pursuing Earthly treasures. But we should still value life.

One reason I was having a hard time doing this was that I knew the purpose in life was to lead people to Christ and encourage those that are already with Christ. but I felt like I wasn't specifically needed for that. I have never led someone to Christ and so I felt like there are obviously better people here that God can use to do so, so I might as well go to Heaven soon. But here is an awesome truth...

The fact that God still has you on the Earth means that God has a purpose SPECIFICALLY FOR YOU!


I may not be Paul or Peter and I am definitely not Jesus, but God can use me even if I'm not the most bold person or the best evangelist.  If God wasn't planning to use me then He would take me up to Heaven with Him because, and I do truly believe this, God wants us to be in Heaven with us just as much if not more than we want to be in Heaven with Him! But He has a purpose for us. And as long as I am living I know I have purpose. And when I die I hope people can think of it as a completion of my purpose rather than sad departure. I mean for goodness sake, I'm leaving a broken, sin-filled, cursed world. That is great!

I hope this made sense because I don't feel like checking if it did. Basically, there is value to life because the fact that I have life means God has a purpose for me. And for you. Also, I hope that you don't take this as me being suicidal. I'm not. But I certainly do look forward to the day I step into Heaven! Its all summed up by this verse from Philippians: "For me to live is Christ and to die is gain"